Once again

For some people, a sense of loneliness is instilled in them during childhood, which haunts them for the rest of their lives. This loneliness gives rise to a longing and a set of expectations for future partners that hardly anyone can fulfil.

You want to find that one person who will put an end to your loneliness, who will always stay by your side. Yet you yourself are reserved when it comes to your feelings and deeper insights into your own life. You don’t want to reveal too much so as not to take any risks, yet at the same time you expect the other person to lay themselves completely bare. An uneven game. A disaster waiting to happen.

But once you’re trapped in this spiral of shattered basic trust, this pattern cannot be changed, even if you’ve seen through it yourself. And with every failed relationship, all your preconceptions are confirmed and reinforced. Eventually, all that remains is the conviction that a life alone is better than the ever-recurring pain of separation. For such people, a break-up isn’t just simply sad, as it is for ‘normal’ people; it is an emotional catastrophe. A recurring collapse of one’s own system.

‘Once Again’ should therefore also represent this spiral through its sound. The listener should be able to relate to this endless struggle without understanding a single line of the lyrics. And above all, the song delivers one thing not – a happy ending! The listener is left with the realisation that the spiral continues. There is no prospect of change. An eternal pain, born in childhood.